The Pettway Family

You Are One Today!!

2011-11-07T19:36:00.000-08:00

My Sweet little boy...today you turned 1!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY COLT!! At 8:24pm you made your debut into this world and have kept us on our toes ever since. A few things I want to remember about this wonderful age.

- started walking at 11 months

- saying dada, tan tu (thank you), mama, bye bye, do (dog), yaya

- claps, dances, gives and blows kisses, plays peek a boo, gives high fives and loves to snuggle when he's tired

- weight about 25 lbs (same as his sister) and no idea on the height

- loves balls, trucks, four wheelers, tractors, and digging through cabinets

He's learning every day and I love to watch him and his sister interact. She wants to hang on him all the time and hug him and kiss him. He'll allow it for a couple of minutes and then start to pull her hair. She screams and cries for a second and then the cycle repeats itself. But they do LOVE to hold each others hand. It's so so sweet!! She walks real slow so he can keep up. If he cries she will be the first to run over and say "what's the matter little baby? You want your mommy? Hang on, I'll go get her!" It's hilarious! We pray every night to thank the Lord for this miracle baby. We only hope that we can raise him to be a Godly, humble man who walks in the way of the Lord. Who stands up for his family. Who treats women and others with respect. Who finds his place in this world and strives to do the work that the Lord has prepared long ago for him.

Big Tractors and Punkin Pickin

2011-11-06T19:44:00.000-08:00

Just a few pictures of some fall fun!!

Pray Always

2011-09-21T20:39:00.000-07:00

I found this verse the other day, and it has captivated my heart. I wanted to share it with you.

"I love the Lord because he hears my voice and my cry for mercy. He bends down to listen. I will pray as long as I have breath"

Psalm 116:1-2

What a beautiful picture of my Father and Savior. Bending down and scooping me up. Listening to my still, small voice even at the most insignificant times.

Mr. Blue Eyes

2011-09-14T19:26:00.001-07:00

This little guy melts my heart. He truly does. To say that I'm totally in love would be an understatement.

No Elephants at the Zoo

2011-09-08T20:57:00.000-07:00

So in the past few weeks we have been spending some serious time at the zoo!! While its no secret around my house that I don't love the zoo. Animals should be in their rightful habitat not in a cage (alright i'm off my soapbox). But as a child there is no greater excitement! We went to the Hattiesburg zoo and then to the Jackson zoo with our sweet friends Anna and Walker!!! I don't have any pictures :( Anna and I were too busy have some much needed catch up time!! But Walker (2 mo old) was such a sweetie and didn't even make a peep. My child on the other hand...well she never shut her mouth. Just like her momma when she was little. She repeats things like a million times as she processes them and had a real hard time with all the noises. As Anna would say..."we're not scared, we're surprised!" Hahaha. Good times were had by all. We missed you Karen and Grace!!

This Is How We Do It

2011-09-05T06:21:00.000-07:00

This is what we do while mommy gets dinner ready. I'm so glad that they are finally at the age where they can kind of play with each other. Usually Briley does something super cool and Colt just tries to copy her. He is fearless. Sometimes a little reckless, but does everything with complete abandonment. I love that about him and at the same time I'm sure its gonna give me a heart attack about 100 times before he reaches adulthood. Briley is always so cautious. She thinks things through and always has. I never really had to babyproof the house for her. Babyproofing these days...Check!

Are You Ready?!!

2011-09-05T06:08:00.000-07:00

It's that time of year!! After about 50 pictures this was the best we got!! It's funny to go back and look at them, and I'm sure all you parents of multiple children know how hard it is to get a good picture of both kids. Someone is always making a silly/sad/mad faced while the other is smiling. Oh well...Hope you're ready for fall!!!

You know you're a mom when...

2011-07-25T21:06:00.000-07:00

It's past your child's bedtime and you're frantically searching through the DIRTY clothes trying to find the least dirty pair of jammies to put on your child. The laundry had not been done in a week or so. Good job, Leanne. Ten minutes later, dressed with speckles of cheese grits and grape jelly, BK was ready to hop into the bed and put her paci in her eye. Yes you heard that correctly: IN HER EYE. It's very funny but strange. Her baby doll next to her, "Rock Rock" had to put her paci in her eye. Finally, prayers were said, and the music playing to cover the noise of the thunder outside. Mommy fell fast asleep... And the laundry still wasn't clean :) Oh well, there's always tomorrow!

Out of the mouth of children...

2011-07-13T19:17:00.001-07:00

You never know what to expect. My little BK is talking up a storm. CONSTANTLY! I love it. I really do. She sings anything and everything she can think of. She remembers lines out of movies and thinks it's quiet hilarious to repeat them. She is also asserting herself and testing limits. CONSTANTLY. This I do not love so much. She is very determined, and I hope that she maintains that spirit; on the other hand she must learn to listen and obey. We are struggling with that concept but making progress. I have learned that each child is different (really Leanne...that's pretty obvious!) So the punishment has to fit the child and their understanding and personality. We have now created the punishment song. She responds really well to it and is a completely changes her attitude the moment I start singing it. Thank you LORD.

The other night we sat down as a family to pray. This was mommy's version of the prayer.

"Dear God, please bless mommy, daddy, colt and Briley. We love you God. Please help us to obey mommy and daddy and please help us not to be afraid" Then I asked Briley if she would like to pray. Here's her version "Mommy, daddy, mommy, colt, daddy, briley. You no scare me God. Disobey and you sit in time ouch! Amen." I had to fight both laughter and tears. She was so proud as was I! You never know what they will say these days :)

Growing Up In Heaven

2011-05-31T12:53:00.000-07:00

Today has been a hard day. I've written and rewritten this post about a dozen times. Words filled with sorrow, desperation and utter helplessness. I miss my Layla. Sometimes so much it physically hurts. It is a feeling that so many mommies, too many, know so well and yet at times I feel as though I'm the only one who has ever hurt this much. I want to hold her and feel her heart beat. Just once. She is growing up in Heaven. I hope she knows how much we love her. How many dreams we have (had) for her. We wanted to give her the world, and yet she has so much more.

About Time for an Update

2011-05-04T18:22:00.000-07:00

Her Face on the train at the new orleans zoo...hahaha

Tshirts for a Cause

2011-04-12T13:11:00.001-07:00

See our blog post below for information about the march of dimes. We are selling southern belle designed tshirts to help raise both money and awareness for the march of dimes. The shirts will be teal blue and will have the following quote on it:

A Legacy born to small

Can impact the world

and

Change us all

I Will Carry You

We are asking for a minimum donation of $18 each for the tshirts but more is always welcome. Just give as you feel led. ALL PROCEEDS WILL GO TO THE MARCH OF DIMES! You can email me if you would like a shirt or with any questions: leanne.malik@gmail.com If you cannot give but would like to still show your support please walk with us on April 30th in downtown jackson!!! Here is our team link where you can donate money and sign up to walk http://www.marchforbabies.org/team/t1515777.

Many of the therapies developed to aid preemies or sick full term newborns have been developed by the march of dimes. This organization has given life to many babies that previously would not have had a chance.

Layla's Legacy: Marching for babies

2011-01-31T12:25:00.001-08:00

Layla Grace Pettway

Zephaniah 3:17-20 "The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing. ... At that time I will gather you; and at that time I will bring you home."

As most of you know, we lost our baby girl just two days after she was born. Many people that we love rallied around us offering support and love during that time and still continue to do so today. Layla Grace was born 13 weeks premature. A carbon copy of her identical twin sister...I can only imagine what it would be like to have her here today. Making the same silly faces Briley does and hugging my neck each night saying "oh night mama". God has given me peace. Not to say that each day isn't a struggle, but I smile when I think of Layla and rejoice in the moment that God calls me home and I give her all the kisses I want. It is because of the March of Dimes that our Briley Kate has life today. She did not have the same birth defect her sister had, but she was so tiny. The ground-breaking work the March of Dimes does on a daily basis gives babies like mine a fighting chance at life. She hugs her momma and daddy each night because of our doctors, NICU nurses and research completed by organizations committed to the cause of prematurity. Its an organization that is near and dear to our hearts and is the reason that so many babies are being held by their mothers and fathers today. They have LIFE. We are walking for Layla's Legacy and in honor of Briley on April 30, 2011 in Memphis, TN. The walk is a 4 mi walk and money raised goes to support babies like my girls. This organization might not have touched your life in a personal way, but if you are a parent, wife, sister, mother, father, or brother chances are at some point in your life you will encounter someone who has had a premature baby. If you know Briley...and get to feel the warmth of her love then you should raise your hands and praise God that an organization like this exists.

Our team name is Layla's Legacy. We would LOVE for you to join our team and walk with us on April 30. However, I realize that some of you live very far away...please consider donating to our cause. Your love, support and prayers have made a difference in our lives and for that I am truly thankful so please do not feel pressured to donate, but we would love to have you walk with us in honor our children. Please go to
http://www.marchforbabies.org/team/t1515777 from there you can join our team to walk, donate money, or help raise money. We have a team goal of raising $2000.

Love,

Leanne and Brian

Little Boy Blue

2011-01-23T19:06:00.000-08:00

They were thrilled to be in the stroller for a walk...NOT

Don't hate on the pink bouncer...he's still a man

Two months Old

Our little man is growing so fast!! Compared to Briley he has been a little more high maintenance which makes me laugh ( well sometimes it makes me cry because i'm so exhausted). He's been fussy and very gassy...I mean VERY GASSY. He cried a majority of the day for the first two months. Which will bring a mother to the brink of tear almost everyday...that coupled with little sleep and chasing a toddler made me realize what God must feel like constantly chasing us. Briley will sit there sometimes, cover her ears and say "hush Colt hust". But as the weeks have gone by our baby boy has learned to digest better and that has made for a much better day.

Here are some stats from our 2 mo check-up:

Weight: 11 lbs 10 oz

Height: 22 3/4 in

Developmental Milestones: Cooing and smiling (he smiled for the first time on Christmas Eve :)

Eyes: Still blue

Hair: Blonde

Sleeping: about 6 hours a night

Stockings Were Hung by the Chimneys with Glee...

2011-01-23T18:30:00.000-08:00

So I know its almost February, but here's a brief glimpse into our Christmas. It was a quite one with a teething toddler and a newborn we really just sat by the fire most of the day. Briley made it quite clear that she rather play with her old toys that day than new ones. Oh well... that's life with a toddler, never know what to expect! We really didn't over do it on the presents. We want to teach our children to be christ centered at Christmas instead of self-centered. We didn't really take many pictures (I regret that now) but I was SOOOO tired. The video camera will have to be our memory...

Child of God

2010-12-22T11:54:00.000-08:00

"For unto us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders" Isaiah 9: 6

I LOVE christmas time. The smells, the music, the movies, the sights and sounds. It makes my heart skip a beat when october approaches in anticipation for the Christmas season. Usually everyone is home for the holidays and the traditions begin. My sister and I used to sleep in the same bed every Christmas eve and watch Christmas movies until we couldn't keep our eyes open any more. Having children changes things though. It has allowed me to appreciate the season in a much different light. I see the season for what it should be...a celebration of the birth of our saviour. It has always been so easy for me to overlook the real meaning for the Christmas season, but as I look as my children and thank the Lord every night for their lives...it always brings me back to what God gave us. Mary held her son just as I hold mine. God was preparing Him even then to save me. I want my children to appreciate this season not for the presents they get but for the LIFE they will receive because of it.

Aunt "Ka Kee"

Most Wonderful Time of the Year

2010-12-06T08:53:00.000-08:00

So my camera charger has been lost in the move, so I haven't taken many pictures lately (not that I have time chasing BK around and feeding Colt every 2-3 hours :) Joyful Chaos my mom calls it and indeed it is!! Time is flying by, so hopefully I can get my camera working again and capture some of the sweet moments with my kids before they get to be teenagers (yikes!)

Handsome Man

2010-11-16T16:01:00.000-08:00

Adjusting

2010-11-16T15:45:00.000-08:00

So big sister Briley has had a little trouble adjusting to life with her baby brother. She is only 19 mo old and the concept that she now has to share time, love, toys and attention with another baby is beyond her capacity to understand. Combine that with the fact that I have been unable to pick her up because of the c-section and she's having some major teething issues has left this poor baby confused and in a tantrum throwing mode on most days. I can only hope that she is able to understand soon that just because she has a new baby brother, our love for her is no less. So I hope you enjoy some pictures of the new big sister!

Halloween Carnival at Church...cutest Giraffe ever!

Loving on her Ya Ya

Welcome Colton!!

2010-11-13T12:00:00.000-08:00

Colton made his debut on Nov. 7, 2010 at 8:24 pm. He weighed 6 lbs 5 oz and was 19 1/2 in long. He's been a joy and a delight so far and we can't wait to share some pictures with you; however, we are also in the process of closing on our house and just haven't found the time to get the pictures downloaded but they will come!! Thanks for all the prayers!! We truly know what a miracle it is that he managed to stay put until almost 38 weeks! God you are so GOOD!

Cruisin'

2010-10-26T19:14:00.001-07:00

Briley has been cruising the streets the past few months in this sweet ride (haha). We tried to instill patients in our 18 mo old as she circled her daddy waiting for him to finish putting together the "simple" assembly. Once inside she had a blast. She goes on rides regularly with her Ya Ya (my mother) and they collect all sorts of neat stuff like acorns, rocks and leaves. Oh to be little and so fascinated by the simple things in life. Here's to fall and hopefully some cooler weather (although it was almost 90 degrees today).

Pregnancy Update?

Gestational Age: 36 weeks (woop woop)

Estimated Weight: LARGE! for both of us (hahah) He hasn't been weighed since 33 weeks, so we'll see, but i'm betting he's on the rather large size.

Important News: C-section is officially scheduled for Nov. 16 at noon (say a prayer for us) However, I have a feeling when I go off my meds next week we'll be seeing this little guy within 24 hours.

Cravings: Nothing really at this point. I'm so uncomfortable that eating and sleeping have become more of a chore than a pleasure. But that's okay...I"ll trade this any day for a 27 week delivery.

BK's thoughts on the Baby: She thinks that Colton sounds like "cold" so every time we say show us where Colton is she laughs and says "BURRR" Every single time. One day very soon she will learn that her brother is a human and not a piece of ice.

34 weeks!!

2010-10-12T11:33:00.001-07:00

So we've reached a HUGE milestone this week!!! Our doctor said that 34 weeks was really the goal, and after that every week is a bonus. So here we are! We're just praying that his little lungs continue to develope and that whenever he decides to make his debut he will be well equipped for life on the outside! So hang in there Colton...Mommy and Daddy are eager to meet you but not just yet! BK also hit a milestone last week...she is 18 mo old!!! Our other miracle baby! She weighed 20 lbs 8 ounces (a petite little thing) and is 32 inches tall. Every day she learns something new and teaches us how to embrace life more. She's amazing and I can't wait to see what God has planned for her! We love you Briley Kate!!

Sprinklers

2010-10-01T09:08:00.001-07:00

Just a few pictures of what daddy and BK have been up to while mommy grows a baby...

But here's a little update on how Colton is doing!

Gestational Age: 32 weeks and 3 days (yay!!!!)

Estimated Weight: 4 lbs and 11 oz

Number of weeks on bed rest : 10 weeks (yikes!)

- Only had to go into the hospital once so far (this is compared to 6 times during the last pregnancy)

- we've made it 5 weeks further than when BK was born

Cravings: Icees (poor Brian has to drive a good distance away just to find one...my husband loves me :)

BK's thoughts on the matter this week: I refuse to sleep...I am only doing this to prepare you for the new baby. Please do not be angry.

Game Day

2010-09-25T14:34:00.000-07:00

It's no secret around my house that i'm not really an avid football fan. But I do try to get in the spirit. While I don't really understand the game, and I rarely care who wins or loses (I feel like its a sin to say that and be from the south!) I really do love this time of year. Brian's heart belongs to Ole Miss so we cheer for them (although BK does have a cow bell she likes to ring thanks to Aunt Linny). So get your cheer on!

And He Shall Be Called...

2010-09-19T11:06:00.000-07:00

COLTON JOSEPH PETTWAY!

Yes we asked ourselves, why are we keeping the name a secret? We've loved so many names that its been hard to pick but this one feels right...it's hard to explain. I just love finally being able to say his name out loud. My sons name. Not just baby boy or "beebo" but the name my son will have throughout his entire life.

Pregnancy Post

2010-09-15T15:55:00.000-07:00

Gestational Age: 30 weeks

Baby's Estimated Weight: 3 lbs 12 ounces

Cravings: Macaroni and Cheese...terrible for me, I know

Belly size: LARGE

Baby's Name: We have FINALLY agreed on a name but aren't ready to share it just yet!

Sleeping: not really well, bigger = more uncomfortable = pillow nest just to get to sleep

Best part: besides the fact that we've made it this far...feeling this little guy move!! Knowing that the miracle of life is growing inside of me! Truly an indescribable feeling.

BK's thoughts on the matter: "bubee" what's a baby besides a really large stomach that grows on a mommy? Do I have to share my toys? Do I need to learn to potty train by 2 years old? Must I really hold my own bottle? YES!!

Stock the Bar Party!

2010-09-14T09:36:00.001-07:00

So my dearest and youngest cousin, Lauren, is getting married Nov. 6 to a sweet guy that we all love! We had planned on having some sort of shower/party for her and Paul but bed rest had me spinning. So it finally happened and it was so much fun! Luckily I have a super creative sister who worked her little booty off getting everything ready...I helped direct from the couch but mainly felt super bossy because I couldn't really help. So thank you Katie and Lindsey for putting together a wonderful party!!! And congrats to Lauren and Paul....we can't wait to celebrate with yall in a few short months (baby...you better stay in till then!)

The Bride and Groom

The four of us...just another memorable photo to add to the collection of the "four"

Fun mixed drinks...love potion no. 9, the blushing bride, and the mother-in-law
The beautiful bride and the party crasher (ahem BK)

Well Hello Third Trimester!

2010-08-31T16:28:00.000-07:00

BK giving her "bubee" a kiss...

Well we made it to our first goal...28 weeks!!!! We never made it this far with BK so this is a welcomed milestone!

Big Red Ball

2010-08-29T11:52:00.000-07:00

So I took a break from my bedroom lair to spend a little time sitting outside when the "cold front" came through this week. Yes...a cold front!! Instead of 103, the temp was 93! With a nice breeze in the evening it was quite lovely. Briley LOVES being outside...I have raised a child who is not interested at all in the television (which I don't know how since Brian and I watch way too much) but loves to explore the yard. We even got the pool out which she refused to play in and went straight to the dog bowl. I think Dakota had more fun with the ball than BK. Hope yall enjoyed the cooler weather as much as we did!

I Wear My Sunglasses At Night

2010-08-24T13:39:00.000-07:00

haha...she looks like she came straight from an 80's workout session...one day she will ask, why am i wearing that stupid headband and socks with that outfit. I have no answers...

stopping traffic to talk about something important...so sassy

Learning to Climb...and growing up WAY to fast

Well not too much going on these days...biggest new around here is that I made it to 27 weeks...HOORAY!! BK was born at 27 weeks and 5 days so this is a huge milestone for us. Bebo (as we lovingly call the baby boy) is measuring quite large for his gestational age so at an estimated 2 lbs 10 oz he has already surpassed BK's birthweight. We just keep praying day by day for time and a miracle. There's so much I feel I need and want to be doing, that I constantly have to remind myself that I'm doing the most important thing of all...growing Bebo and giving him time. Crib bedding and clothes can wait...hmmm.

Sew Long Sewing Machine...

2010-08-16T14:25:00.000-07:00

Well sister... you may come retrieve your sewing machine. But rest assure that I will have a long list of things for you to sew for me. Yes that's right! Since I'm apparently "too preggers to stop you" from taking what is rightfully yours, I will thus make a request each week for you to sew in all of your spare time. Ha! Until then...I will continue to stalk super cute blogs and dream of the day that I have the time (and equipment) to pursue my sewing career. So long nursing... I'm gonna be a seamstress!

Sweet Summertime

2010-08-11T10:25:00.000-07:00

We'll here's just a glimpse into how we've spent some of our summer...trying to avoid the unbearable heat!!! We took a trip to the beach (which BK LOVED!) unfortunately I had to spend most of the time inside because the heat increased my contractions. Pool-time was my getaway. But nonetheless we loved spending time with Aunt Kate and Drew who made the trip from Georgia to hang out. Brian's family and Aunt Linny also joined us! BK soaked up all that attention and learned some new tricks as well!

Big Sister, Little Brother

2010-08-08T17:21:00.000-07:00

Alright, so I know its been forever since I've posted anything on here but I vow to do better. With so many family members in different places we (or I) figured it was the best way to keep in touch with everyone! So in March we found out that we were expecting another baby! Yes, some may call us crazy but we're excited to see what the future holds. They should be about 1 1/2 apart, which I think will be just perfect. The pregnancy was going just fine... the first thing Brian asked the doctor was how many babies do you see? One has been the answer from the start. No morning sickness this time.... I just all around felt different and was hoping this pregnancy would take a different path. We found out around 13 weeks that Briley Kate was going to have a LITTLE BROTHER! We were thrilled!!! From 16 weeks I started going to the doctor every week for a progesterone shot and a cervical length measurement. Since we weren't sure if cervical incompetence, pre-term labor, or multiple gestation was the cause of the twins early delivery (or a combination of all three) our doctor decided to be hypervigilant and stay on top of things. All was well until 23 weeks. I had started having minor sporadic contractions but nothing painful or regular so they had just been monitoring. But 23 week apt revealed some cervical changes and increased contractions. So Bed rest it was. We'll do anything to keep our little man tucked safely inside for many weeks to come but its been much tougher this time with BK running to the bed every 5 mins crying for me to play with her. God will sustain us though... He has provided thus far and we've just about made it to 25 weeks. I'm a true believer in miracles and see one everytime I look at Briley Kate. Please pray for this little guy and our family as we navigate this somewhat familiar territory.

Once a clumber...always a clumber

2010-03-16T20:08:00.000-07:00

So for those of you who have ever owned a clumber spaniel you will understand this but if you haven't let me give you a slight glimpse into the life of my first baby. His name is Montana, but he will answer to any number of names (usually Bobby or Wubbie). He has this obsessive need to have something in his mouth at ALL times. At my mom's house there is this little basket that she keeps an old pair of shoes for him to keep in his mouth. When someone comes in the door he immediately runs to that basket and picks up his shoe to greet the visitor. However, today the basket was EMPTY...and got stuck on his head!!! It was so funny. This was so typical of how this dog operates...strange, funny, loving and clumsy. We love you Bobby Wubbie!

Because It Never Snows in Mississippi...

2010-02-24T12:31:00.001-08:00

I just thought I should post a few pictures of our day with the snow

Camp Yona

2010-02-24T12:18:00.000-08:00

This is a smile that she reserves for her boyfriend (Drew). Seriously...she only smiles like this when she is flirting with him! But I sure do LOVE that smile

Smiling as they played in the car on the way to Atlanta

Here's a quick glimpse of our trip to Greensboro, GA to visit Aunt Kate and Drew! We drove into Atlanta one day to mess around...we were hoping to meet Elizabeth at the aquarium, but the weather just didn't cooperate for us at all! But I was especially thankful to see Drew and Katie's camp!!!! Yes that's right! Katie along with a great group of people are opening a girls camp. A dream job for her (yes I am slightly jealous :), and a job that God could not have designed for a better person. I have watched her passion for kids grow over the past few years, and when this opportunity presented itself she jumped at the offer. I can't begin to describe the feeling you get when you step foot onto the land that will soon be Camp Yona, so I'm gonna let Kate do it for me. Here's her blog as they track their journey into the slightly unknown: www.campyona.blogspot.com

We miss you Aunt Kate! Can't wait to see you for BK's Birfday!!

where have we been?

2010-02-01T08:27:00.000-08:00

PS- I know these are old photos but we just put our house on the market and things have ended up in odd places so when I find my photo card i'll update!

Well... sometimes I wonder if anyone really even reads this blog, but on the off chance that people still do here's a little bit about what's been going on in our lives!! Our sweet pea is almost 10 months old...WHAT!!? where has the time gone? In case you haven't gotten to meet her here's a little glimpse into her life and personality.

At 15 pounds and 8 ounces she's a bouncy, flirty little thing! Her favorite thing to do (besides flirting with my sisters boyfriend!) is to watch the movie happy feet. As much as I try to keep her away from the tv, let's face it sometimes you just need a break and happy feet is the perfect babysitter!

She sits all my herself and is rolling all around! We read books almost everyday and enjoy watching our puppies play in the backyard (that is when its not freezing!). We recently took a trip to see Aunt Kate at her new home outside of Atlanta (quick shout-out to Camp Yona...a wonderful place to discover your inner spirit!) She LOVES all types of baby food, but her favorite is a mixture of spinach, peas and pears. BK just recently figured out how to stick her tongue out and cough. She does both and then laughs at herself! Her strawberry blonde hair is finally coming back in although its more of a mullet style than anything else (business in the front and yes party in the back!)

So to sum it up...she's pretty much the greatest thing that's ever happened to me. A daddy's girl already and the happiest baby around, our little angel is defying odds and developing right on track. Hard to imagine that just short of 10 months ago we were staring at a 2 pound baby girl and wondering what the future would hold. Know one knew just how much she would change our lives for the better.

Happy Happy Turkey Day

2009-11-29T17:40:00.001-08:00

Yes a cold bottle does wonders for a teething baby!

Best picture ever!!

Family Photo from a cold Thanksgiving day at Aunt Linny and Aunt Lauren's house

Her favorite new face...if I could add sound you would see this face with a weird whining, grunting sounds...its hilarious!

We had a lovely Thanksgiving celebrating with both of sides of our families! Briley Kate will soon be 8 months old...I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!! What a big girl she has become! Milestones we have met so far?: BK is rolling, sitting while supported, babbling up a storm, blowing spit bubbles, eating all sorts of yummy homemade baby food (thanks Ju Ju!), playing in her walker, grabbing objects with both hands, and most importantly trying to cut teeth. Can't wait to see what 8 months old has in store for us! We go to a developmental clinic at the beginning of January to assess how far behind she is and what we can do to help her catch up and meet those important milestones.

Get Your Game Face On

2009-11-04T18:28:00.001-08:00

I walked into the living room the other day to find this scene. Daddy is very lucky to have a girl that LOVES sports. Her favorite is football, but she'll take just about whatever I'll let her watch. The first game of the world series was on the other day. I walked in to find her sitting on her daddy's shoulders and thoroughly into the game. At first she was holding onto his hair then she graduated to his ears. It was the funniest scene to watch! The pictures hardly do it justice! So with a big string of drool dripping into his hair and with his ears being pulled in all directions, sweet daddy endured just to spend a few quality minutes with both his girl and his Yankees.

Trick or Treat

2009-11-04T18:19:00.001-08:00

Briley Kate celebrated her first halloween in style! We actually had a family reunion this past weekend, soo Halloween was spent at Ju Ju's house. Amidst the pumpkins, BK was the only little ladybug. I do have to admit that Jackson and Anthony were very cute pumpkins! Hope to meet you next time Jackson!

Silly Willy Wednesdays

2009-10-21T17:24:00.000-07:00

And who says blondes don't look good in yellow ...thanks aunt Linny!!

BK says recycle (if you look close her jammies are 'green')

BK and her friends: Paxton (the bear) and Willy (the rabbit)

Just a few updated pictures of our sweet growing girl!

Miscarriage and Infant Loss Remembrance Day

2009-10-15T13:52:00.000-07:00

All over the country tonight people are lighting candles in remembrance of babies lost too soon. The lighting begins at 7:00pm regardless of the time zone. While my heart is heavy today, we know that loss isn't just one day a year. Its a pain that is felt everyday of the year. It usually sneaks up on me unexpectedly. I'll be strolling in the grocery store and see a mother with twin girls...At that moment I am filled with both rage and an unbearable sadness. But I know there is hope. And I am thankful that I have peace most days. I carry you. I carry you Layla everyday of my life. I carry you in my heart. I carry you when I play with your sister. I carry you when I see your daddy. I carry you until I hold you again.

Please take a moment tonight at 7pm and light a candle and pray for those who have felt loss.

Shot Day

2009-10-07T14:47:00.000-07:00

So the cardiology apt was filled with screams and tears. We had an EKG and ECHO done, after 3 hours we finally saw the doctor who gave us the results. She still has a small ASD (or hole in her heart for the non-medical). The doctor expects it to close on its own, but in the off chance that it does not we will return in two years to have another round of tests. He explained that since she hasn't exhibited any symptoms from it so far, she should handle it fine. We left the cardiologist's office and headed to her 6 mo apt with her regular pediatrician. She weighed in at 12 pounds (and finally made it on the growth chart woo hoo!) It's the small simple things that excite us! The doctor said that while she is developmentally a little behind, she still looked very good. 4 shots later BK was snuggled up my arms recovering from a VERY LONG day of screaming and crying. Bless her heart, as a parent and nurse I know what they are doing is medically necessary but it never makes it any easier. Hope everyone has a happy wednesday!

Cardiology Appointment

2009-10-06T20:00:00.000-07:00

So we go to the cardiologist tomorrow as well as our 6 month apt. She had a small hole in her heart when they did the ultrasound back in April. The doctors said it was nothing to worry about at this time. We were of course worried because Layla also had a hole in her heart...Layla's hole was extremely different, but it still hits me hard every time I think about Briley Kate. So we're going to check things out. Figure out if we need to have a future plan or if we're in the clear. Also today is her 1/2 year birthday!!!! Happy Birthday Little Snuggle Bug!!! It's been an incredible journey and we're so blessed to see you grow and change every single day. The day was uneventful, but we did get to see Aunt Kate (who is moving to Atlanta...tear). We love you Aunt Kate and had a blast hanging out with you. Will update tomorrow on clinic results.

Roll Roll Roll Lynx Cats Roll On...

2009-09-23T09:00:00.000-07:00

So many people this season are yelling Geaux Tigers, Hotty Toddy, Go State, etc. The teams are great (well some are haha), the energy is high. So I stopped today to pay tribute to MY alma mater...RHODES COLLEGE! We may be small, we might not have our own band, some don't even know what a lynx cat is, and many call us nerds. But here's a shout out to the greatest college ever!! Roll Lynx Roll!! As you can see Briley Kate is already following in her mother's footsteps...

Bundles of Baby Food

2009-09-03T19:20:00.000-07:00

I'm not a cooking girl at all. Poor Brian! I try, I really do, but I just do not love it. So, my dad gave me this wonderful baby food maker as a shower gift. I thought what a good idea to save money and to have fresh organic food for BK. This was my first attempt. I made carrots, and I have to say that I think it turned out pretty great! It was super easy, only took me like 5 minutes to cut the carrots up and there was just one little bowel to clean at the end. She is not really eating baby food yet, so I froze what I had and its ready to eat! For $1.88, I made 8 little bowls of baby food. Economic? YES! Easy? YES! Will i really take the time to do this? We shall see!

Happy Friday!

2009-08-28T17:31:00.000-07:00

Briley Kate is almost 5 months old, and I can't believe it! She has just recently started trying to eat rice cereal out of a spoon. Its amazing how alert she is becoming. I just get tickled every time I see her trying to laugh. She's absolutely the love of our lives and we hope to share a little of our growing girl with you! I've been trying to capture a big ole smile on camera but I haven't been successful yet, maybe soon. Happy Friday!

Birthday Boy

2009-08-02T16:25:00.000-07:00

Last wednesday was Brian's 26th birthday. We took the weekend to celebrate with our families in Vicksburg. It was the first birthday part we've had with our daughter, and she brings a whole new life to the party. I stopped for a moment that day and marveled at all the people who shaped my amazing husband into the man he is today. I'm so blessed to have him in my life. I love to watch him with his daughter, and I enjoy him in the quite when it is just the two of us. From the moment God blessed Martha and Joe with their first born son, He was already preparing him for what was to come. A journey it has been for both of us...and I could not ask for someone more supportive, loving, and caring as Brian. Thank you for being my rock. Happy Birthday Daddy!

Lil Snuggle Bunny

2009-07-09T13:43:00.000-07:00

Momma and Little Bitty

Grandpa Joe and BK

Yes...I am the mother who put a huge bow on my child's head...and I love it!

BK checkin out how pretty she is.

Snoozin with Daddy!

Briley Kate is officially 3 months old! According to our scales she weighs 8 pounds...whoa! I've loved watching her grow over the past few weeks. She's really started to interact with us and develop her own personality. She even knows how to squeeze out a few extra tears when she wants to snuggle...and snuggle she does. She now knows she has hands. She likes to look at them even if they make her go cross-eyed. Those tiny, sweet little hands are dangerous weapons as well. When she is hungry and mad she just loves to grab hold of my hair and pull...she really grabs whatever is in her reach (skin, hair, eyes...whatever). She's probably thinking, "I didn't get to be 8 pounds by just lying around never making a sound!" Gotta love her! Happy 3 month birthday Little!

I Will Carry You

2009-06-25T20:04:00.000-07:00

Briley Kate Pettway 2 pounds 2 onces 15 inches

Layla Grace Pettway 2 pounds 1.5 ounces 14 inches

Precious Layla

It's hard to believe that TODAY was the original due date for our two little girls. I just can't imagine what it would be like to erase the past...to have our two babies here healthy and on time. But life gave us a different path, and God is helping us find the good in it. Words escape me today. There's a big hole in my heart, and sometimes all you can do is cry. I'm reminded of a song by casting crowns:

I was sure by now

That you would have reached down

And wiped our tears away

Stepped in and saved the day

But once again, I say "Amen" and its still raining.

As the thunder rolls

I barely hear you whisper through the rain

"I'm with you"

And as your mercy falls

I raise my hands and praise the God who gives

And takes away

I'll praise you in this storm

And I will lift my hands

For you are who you are

No matter where I am

And every tear I cry, you hold in your hands

You never left my side

And though my heart is torn

I'll praise you in this storm

I remember when

I stumbled in the wind

You heard my cry

You raised me up again

My strength is almost gone

How can I carry on

If I can't find you?

And as the thunder rolls

I barely hear you whisper through the rain

"I'm with you"

And as your mercy falls

I raise my hands and praise the God who gives

And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills...where does my help come from?

My help comes from the Lord

The maker of heaven and earth.

I love you both, more than words can express. I'm so blessed that God allowed me to be your mommy!

Summertime

2009-06-22T11:50:00.000-07:00

Summer is officially here in the good ole south. Temperatures of up to 100 already, so we're hiding inside! We weighed Briley Kate about a week ago and she had cleared 6 pounds...I think she's inching towards 7 right now! People ask me if she's a good baby...and she really has been. However, this past weekend she found her voice. Brian was out of town for about 4 days, so sleep deprived and cranky BK and I made our way through her tirades. She's not that bad, but for a baby that has done nothing but eat and sleep (no crying at all) a few crying spells in the middle of the night has just seemed impossible to me! My due date is just 3 days away, so BK will officially be a newborn...i think this may be the cause for her newfound fussiness. Here are some updated pictures that are long overdue.

Growing Like a Weed!

2009-06-10T10:04:00.001-07:00

Sleeping Beauty

Snoozin in the swing...her new favorite place.

BK enjoying some good tummy time.

Well we went to our pediatrician on monday. It was basically a weight check. At discharge last monday she weighed 4 pounds and 8 ounces, just one week later she weighed 5 pounds and 5 ounces!!! What are we feeding her?! She's an eater...definitely her parents daughter! We have just been enjoying every moment with her. While it can be tough sometimes, we just can't get enough! At the rate she's growing, she'll be a grown up before we know it.

Life has been good this past week. I went back to work on tuesday (yes...i cried). It took me a few hours to get readjusted to the fast paced hospital life, my coworkers lovingly called it "baby brain". The hours passed quickly, but I knew she was in the good hands of both my husband and Grandma Ju Ju. So today we are just enjoying each other. Basking in the glory of what God has entrusted me with...a tiny life that holds our hearts and embodies what Love truly is. Since it has been so warm outside, we have taken her on a few walks and the other day, Aunt Kate came over and snapped a few shots of Briley Kate outside. It was fun and BK was a good sport about it. Gotta capture these sweet moments before they are gone!

Love to All,

Leanne and Brian

Sweet Pea

2009-06-03T16:26:00.000-07:00

Inexpressible JOY!

2009-06-03T09:16:00.001-07:00

So, we're home at last!! Briley Kate joined us at home on monday afternoon. She's so tiny in her carseat that I nearly had a nervous breakdown trying to make sure she was still breathing on the ride home. Silly Leanne...of course she's breathing, they wouldn't discharge her unless they were completely sure she was ready to come home! (I repeat this to myself at least 5 times a day). We didn't sleep much at the hospital sunday night...between the "weird" noises she kept making and the slamming doors from other areas around the unit, we probably got an hour each. I finally had to ask the nurse about the strange grunting noises she makes pretty much all night long. The nurses told me that they call it the "grunt-n-grow". Its a preemie thing...but she does it ALL the time. With that said, I would rather listen to her grunt all day every day than not have her here. She's really a very good baby, doesn't cry much at all. We feed her, sneak in a little snuggle time and then she's back to the bassinet to grunt a little longer. We had a apt this morning at the outpatient clinic, just to make sure she was still gaining weight and get any questions we had answered. She weighed 4 pounds 8 ounces at discharge, and now we're up to 4 pounds 11 ounces. This is awesome considering some preemies lose weight the first few days at home.

Brian and I tease that I'm the "wash your hands, don't sneeze on my baby, don't come near me if your sick, over-protective baby nazi". While we tease, all these things are true. However, the nurse told me today that I had every right to be that way and in fact she expected it. We are the advocates for our child, and I couldn't bear if something happened to her that I could have tried to prevent. With that said...I apologize in advance to anyone that might cross my path when I'm on this tirade, but think how much you love her and I'm sure you'll understand why I'm like this.

It's an inexpressible JOY i have now that she's home. Joy mixed with nerves and sleeplessness, but Joy nonetheless. However, sorrow hides deep within. The "why's?" start to resurface and my soul aches with questions about why I can't bring both of my babies home. Please pray and thank God for the miracles he has performed for us. Pray for worries eased, and for a stillness that allows my soul to find God in the midst of an inexpressible pain. Thanks to all who have supported and prayed for us!! I will post pictures of our little Love at home soon!

It's OFFICIAL...

2009-05-30T20:26:00.000-07:00

We're coming home on monday!!!! We will room in at the hospital tomorrow night and then probably be home monday morning. I have waited so long for this and now that's it here, I'm so nervous. Since I had an emergency c-section and the babies went straight to the NICU, I never really had that feeling of preparing and waiting for the sweet moment when we would all be home together...I have waited and now it's almost here! The nerves are in full swing, but I wouldn't change it. Keep us in your prayers as we welcome our new bundle home. I love you my darling...can't wait to love on you whenever I want!

Getting Ready!

2009-05-29T06:51:00.000-07:00

So the time is fast approaching...AHH! She passed her car seat test, and is still eating good. At this point we're just waiting for her to gain a little more weight. They want her to weigh 4 pounds 6 ounces before they send her home...and today we weigh 4 pounds 4.6 ounces! Brian has to be out of town for the weekend, the doctor's are aware of this and told us that even if she reaches her weight by tomorrow, they probably won't send her home before monday. They do a program called "rooming in" at the hospital. Brian and I will take her to a regular hospital room that is right next to the NICU. She won't be hooked up to any of the monitors, and we'll just be able to resume all the care of her. Like normal parents. It's just a way for parents to get comfortable and the NICU is right there if we have any questions at all. Wow! I just can't wait to hold her whenever I want! My joy is overflowing today! Thank you Lord for all that you've done for our family.

Oh! Just one more thing...MRI IS NORMAL!!!! This is bigger news to us than many people probably know. This is truly a testament to how BIG God is. He has moved a mountain for us.

Here's just a quick peak at how far BK has come: Life started early for her tipping the scales at 2 pounds and 2 ounces. I was on high doses of magnesium sulfate, so unfortunately she was too. Right after birth she was intubated and placed on a ventilator. Mommy could not be by her side...but would be soon. 6 hours later we were taken off the ventilator and placed on oxygen via nasal cannula. We now weighed 1 pound 14 ounces. We couldn't eat so we had an NG tube, an umbilical IV for nutrition and fluids.

Week 1 ... head ultrasound to check for brain bleeds.

Week 2... finally we weigh 2 pounds 2 ounces again, and we begin to eat via NG tube, so IV is taken out.

Week 3...stable.

Week 4...another head ultrasound that yields conflicting results.

Week 5 ... blood transfusion.

Week 6...move to private room and oxygen comes off.

Week 7...starts to eat out of a bottle, weight now 4 pounds, NG tube out, moved into an open crib, and MRI.

Week 8... we shall see...hopefully this will say coming home!

Biggie

2009-05-26T17:05:00.001-07:00

So today marks a momentous occasion for two reasons: First our tiny little baby now weighs 4 pounds and 1 ounce! What a big girl! She is even big enough to move into an open newborn crib. Whoa...that's right it's been a slow crawl but we finally got there! She has kept her temperature up all day and is still eating like a champ. Way to go BK! Keep being a big girl so mommy and daddy can have you home and love on you!

Second reason today is so wonderful: Because 21 years ago little baby Lauren came into our lives and things have been interesting ever since! Shout out to you baby Lauren, we all send love your way today Biggie!

The "other" children

2009-05-24T19:09:00.000-07:00

Dakota and B...sweet girl this is her favorite spot.
Montana as a whittle puppy!
Monty and Dakota playing in the yard...Monty wins...always!
Montana...aka Wubbie, Bobby, Ibbie, Monty, Hanna, Buppie...just about any name you can think of!

Thought I would post a few pictures of our "other" children. Poor little guys...they have been a little neglected in the midst of all that has been going on.

BK Update: She is doing wonderful and growing like crazy. She is almost 7 weeks old and weighed in at 3 pounds 14 ounces today! They are letting her take a bottle at every feeding now since she has done so well. she took the bottle for me 3 times today...hooray! The doctors are thinking that she will be home in a week and a half as long as things keep progressing like they are. We simply cannot wait! To have her home is a whole different kind of happy.

Prayer Requests for this week: That Briley will continue to grow and take her bottle at every feeding. Prayers for an MRI on monday...that the doctors will find no abnormalities or lesions. Prayers for a strong immune system especially when BK comes home. Her blood levels were inching towards the low point again, so they were thinking that she might need another blood transfusion before she goes home. Prayers that the transfusion will go successfully with no adverse side effects. Thanks to all who pray for our family! We pray for you daily and are blessed to have you as our support system.

I heart Snoodle Head

2009-05-19T13:55:00.000-07:00

My Beautiful Mother's day gift!

Today's update will be short and sweet: all is well.

I wanted to give yall a few pictures of our growing girl. 3 pounds and 10 ounces rounds off the day today! She wasn't really cooperating for the pictures. Momma's like to think that they can fix anything. She was a fussy girl when I picked her up today. We stuck a pacifier in her mouth and she sucked on it like she was starving! But she was still fussy after her bottle...it really makes you feel helpless when you can't figure out how to console your child, but daddy came to the rescue. As soon as I put her in his arms, she was smiling and just staring at his face. Today Daddy fixed it.

Thanks for being the wonderful husband that you are!

Home

2009-05-17T10:01:00.000-07:00

Many people have asked and we were curious as well...what are the requirements that Briley Kate needs to meet before we can come home?

She has to weigh at least 4 pounds (usually they like to send them home around 4 1/2 pounds)...and she has to be able to maintain her own body temperature outside of the warmer. She is still in the warmer now, but they will move her out once she reaches 4 pounds.

BK needs to be off of the caffeine for at least 2 weeks with no apneic or bradycardic (when her heartrate drops) spells that she can't bring herself out of. We've been off the caffeine for at least a week and she's done well.

Lastly she has to be able to take the appropriate amount of milk at each feeding through a bottle. This is the one that might keep us here the longest. She took a whole bottle for me the other day!! But she is really only able to take it about once a day and it just wears her out. Right now they are letting her take what she can in a 15 minute feeding and then giving her the rest through her NG tube.

I have to remind myself that while it's a slow process she is making some serious progress. Barring no set backs the doctors said they expect her to go home around 37-38 weeks gestational age which is around the beginning or mid-june. So with patience in tow, I wait for my little darling. Praying all the while that she will continue to grow stronger and will have no major setbacks. We love you Briley Kate...you have a whole family waiting here to meet you!

Yum Yum

2009-05-14T16:00:00.000-07:00

So Briley weighs in at 3 pounds and 4 ounces today. She just has the sweetest disposition...one that I hope will last once she gets home! I was concerned the other day because I have never really heard her cry. I didn't know if she wasn't crying because of prematurity or if she just didn't get fussy...luckily for us the nurse reassured me that she definitely had a temper and could let out a big ole cry, but she just has a good temperment. That a girl Briley!

Today she actually took 22cc's by bottle!!!! I thought I was dreaming when the nurse told me. They are really only trying to bottle feed her once a day because she got so worn out by the whole process, and in fact I didn't even get her out and hold her because she was so tired. Poor baby, but at least she's trying. She was 33 weeks gestational age yesterday, and its around this time that babies usually start to gather a suck reflex. Slowly they will start letting her feed by bottle more and more. So that's our big news and her big accomplishments. Brian and I were both amazed at how much "fat" she's put on these last few days. Eat, Eat, Eat Big Girl so you can come on home to us!

Superstar!

2009-05-11T17:41:00.000-07:00

So here is a much needed update on things! On mother's day I had two big surprises waiting for me at the hospital... she now weighes 3 pounds!!! Whoo hoo! Also my sister had a darling dress monogramed with I Love My Mom on it. Briley Kate was wearing the dress when I got there that morning and there was a picture of her in it that they had developed from the day before. I"ll post a picture of the gift soon. Even though my little darling was miles away, it was still a wonderful first mother's day. Thanks Katie for making it extra special!

She is now taking 28 cc's and they run it in over an hour to prepare her for bottle feeding. She is still tolerating her feeds very well. She has been off of oxygen since wednesday (so almost a week!)...yay. Her oxygen sats have remained stable so that's good. The next big step we're taking is discontinuing the caffeine. She gets a dose of caffeine every morning (haha...like the rest of us!) to keep her heart rate up and to prevent any apnea spells (where she stops breathing). She hasn't had any spells for awhile on the caffeine, so the doctors decided it would be a good idea to discontinue it and see how she does. She has to be spell free (or able to bring herself out of the spells) for at least a week or two before we go home. Blood work has all looked good, no signs of infection, and head ultrasound was inconclusive so we'll have an MRI in a few weeks just to make sure everything is okay. The nurses are going to try and really start to bottle feed the next few weeks. She is not always alert enough but we're getting there.

I find myself whispering "thank you Lord" almost every hour of every day. I truly am thankful for all the progress Briley Kate has made. We love her more than words can express. We are also so thankful for all of the people who have prayed for us, cried with us, and shared in those quiet moments with us. We love yall.

"The Lord your God is with you,

He is mighty to save.

He will take great delight in you,

He will quiet you with his love,

He will rejoice over you with singing." Zephaniah 3:17

Hallelujah for a God who is BIG enough to move mountains, yet small enough to know every hair on our head. Happy 5 week Birthday My Darling!!

My Little Lady Bug

2009-05-06T09:05:00.000-07:00

The best face ever!

These pictures have to be some of the cutest that I have ever seen...of course i'm a little biased, but still one month old and she already knows the face to get whatever she wants. BK weighs in today around 2 pounds and 12 ounces. She is gaining about an ounce a day when averaged out, and this is exactly what the doctor's want. They have tried to take her oxygen off again...however, this time instead of taking the nasal cannula off of her they just turned the oxygen off and put it on top of her nose...she has done fine with this so far. When they try to take it off completely, she drops her O2 sats, funny isn't it? I guess maybe its a security blanket or something? But at any rate she is off the oxygen again. Her feedings have increased to 23 cc's/every 2 hours. She has shown some real interest in sucking when it is getting close to time to turn the feedings on, and that is a good sign!! She took the pacifier for 20 minutes on monday...not quite ready to try a bottle but we're making some real progress. Biggest news of the day: We moved into a private step-down room...WHOO HOO! She is still in the NICU, but the room we're in is private now with a television and just allows us to spend more time with her even if we're not holding her. She is having a follow-up brain ultrasound today. She had one when she was 1 week old and everything was normal...its standard procedure for preemies to have another one at one month of age. The doctors don't expect to find anything abnormal, but that just want to keep an eye on things. Will let yall know when we get the results. God is so Good!

Prayer requests: That Briley Kate will remain free from infections, that she will keep gaining weight, that the ultrasound will yield positive results, and wisdom for the doctors and nurses that care of our little girl. Our hearts continue to ache for Layla and while each day gets a little better, there are many days that are not. The Lord holds her now... He cradles her and sings to her. She couldn't be in better hands and yet my hands ache to hold her. Please pray that God will continue to heal.

Keep growing baby girl...momma can't wait till you're home with her!

Just Me and My Daddy

2009-05-04T07:28:00.001-07:00

Just a peak into first moment when Brian got to hold his baby girl. Briley Kate was having a good day and demanded some snuggle time with daddy! There is nothing like holding your child for the first time...an instant connection and the feeling of more love than one ever thinks possible. Usually parents get to hold their child within the first few minutes/hours after birth, and I have to admit that I envy them so much. Finally, four weeks after her birthday, Daddy and Briley Kate got that moment, and I was so blessed to be a part of it. She already has him wrapped around her finger.

Quick update: She now weighs 2 pounds 11 ounces! We're slowly creeping up there. She'll gain a few ounces then lose a few, so its been a slow climb this week. They have increased her feedings to 23 cc's/ every 2 hours. She tolerates most of the time but tends to spit up in the mornings when they add the vitamin supplements. The nurses have tried to take her oxygen off several times, but she seems to want to hold onto the whiff that they have her on. The doctor's and nurses say that its completely normal...just a slow process (Patience is one fruit of the spirit that I never had, but God is teaching me). Other than that she's doing fine. I finally found a few outfits that fit her so she doesn't have to go naked (haha) and she's adorable. So four weeks old today... HAPPY ONE MONTH BIRTHDAY BABY GIRL!

Briley Kate...3 weeks old!!

2009-04-29T07:00:00.000-07:00

BK with Momma

Haha...Grandma Ju Ju hates this hat, but I think its cute!

I have my daddy's wedding band on my arm!

Briley was 3 weeks old on monday...big girl!! Today, I would be 31 weeks pregnant. Can you believe that? Most women are no where near thinking about having a baby at that gestational age, and my little darling is 3 weeks old. She is still taking the same amount of breastmilk (20cc's) and now weighs 2 pounds 9 ounces, anyone care to guess what she will weigh next monday? Hopefully 3 pounds!! So far we have no had any major setbacks. The oxygen has been taken off and put back on, but that is a very minor thing; however, yesterday we were informed that she needed a blood transfusion. Apparently, this is a very common thing for preemies but as a mother nothing is common. Unfortunately, Layla had a blood transfusion immediately prior to her passing...while I know in my head that the circumstances are completely different between the two girls, I still couldn't tell my heart that. I prayed over her knowing that this was a decision that only we could make. The symptoms she was having pushed us to go ahead and consent to the transfusion. She finished it last night around 11, and tolerated everything fine! Praise the Lord!! I could never imagine how much I would love my little girl and how hard it would be to make decisions that would effect her life. Please keep her in your prayers...that we keep growing and that her immune system would keep infections far away.

Look Momma and Daddy...no oxygen!!

2009-04-27T16:40:00.000-07:00

Briley Kate and I got to snuggle for 2 hours today! When I got there they had decided to take her oxygen off and see how she did. So far she had had a good day and I was interested to see if she could keep her sats up when I held her...and she did!! Oxygen sats for a healthy newborn should be around 94-100%, Briley's usually stay around 90-100%. Snuggle time had her sats at 97% pretty steadily which is fantastic! Here's a picture of her without her oxygen in her nose. I brought a preemie hat up for her to wear, and you can see how big it is still. But we're trying to grow!

Growing Baby Girl

2009-04-26T18:58:00.000-07:00

So Brian and I have been out of town for a few days while he coached his tournament team. We knew our little girl was in good hands, but it was very hard leaving town. Luckily, Briley Kate took that time to do some serious growing!! She now weighs in at 2 pounds 7 ounces. It probably doesn't sound like much, but it warms my heart to see her "chubby" little cheeks! Every ounce at this point is crucial. She weighed 2 pounds 2 ounces at birth, and lost down to 1 pound 14 ounces...so go girl...keep that tummy full! We're up to 20cc's every two hours on her feedings, and she has even shown some interest in sucking. The pacifier looks HUGE compared to her little mouth, but i'm proud of her. One of the requirements of going home is learning how to suck on a bottle. It's funny the little things you take for granted when you see a healthy full term baby...so many obstacles ahead, but so many that we've already overcome! Praise the Lord for His mighty hand in all of this. Will post 3 week pictures soon!

Briley Kate...2 weeks old!

2009-04-21T18:05:00.000-07:00

Tiny Little Feet!

Briley Kate "Snoodle Head"

At one glance

I love you

with a thousand hearts

~ Mihri Hatun

Here's a few updated pictures of our growing baby girl! She weighs about 2 pounds 2 ounces in these pictures. As of today, they are adding some calories and vitamin fortifiers to the breastmilk so that she can start to gain some weight. (yay!) She is up to 18cc's/every 2 hours on her feeds and is still on oxygen...1/2L by nasal cannula which you can see in the pictures. She's a peanut but a fighter! They do developmental care in the Neonatal ICU...they use what is called a Snoodle. They send the snoodles home with the mother so I can wash it and sleep with it (that gets my scent on the blanket)...then they place the snoodle over her head in the incubator so that she get's used to how i smell and it makes for an easier transition. We have all become very fond of the snoodle (you'll see it in some of the pictures) and it seems to be very therapeutic for her. Our biggest hurdle right now is that Briley Kate remains free from infection while her body and immune system are so fragile. We will try to keep this updated as much as possible. Thanks everyone for the support that you have given our family over the past two weeks. We really are blessed to have each of you in our lives.

Growing Babies

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23 Weeks!! and every bit of it. This was the day of the baby shower (shout out to Katie, Lin, and Lauren!) Proud daddy is excited about his baby girls!

16 weeks! 3 weeks after finding out that we were having twins. We barely knew at this point what the Lord had in store for us.

Almost 28 weeks!!

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I will be 28 weeks this coming wednesday...praise the Lord!! As many of you know this has been a very long and difficult pregnancy for Brian and I. The babies have been trying to make a weekly debut since 23 weeks. We're so blessed that we have been given as much time as we have and hope to give these little girls even more. For every bit of time we give them, gives them the world. We love them even though we have not met them!! We are SO grateful for all of the prayers...God holds our family in the palm of His hand and we have complete trust in Him.